RP-Studio

So I have been extremely lazy lately. 
I have had no scanner and life has got in the way.
Now I have free time again, I plan on using it to my advantage. And then I found another 100 picture challenge. 
Lets hope I do better this time.
this one is by, 


100 Word Challenge List:

1. Introduction
2. Poison
3. Abandoned
4. Crisis
5. Dream
6. Shooting Star(s)
7. Mist
8. Hopeless
9. Obsession
10. Dreamcatcher
11. Rose(s)
12. Clouds
13. Revenge
14. Insanity
15. Disappear
16. Shadow
17. Darkness
18. Illuminate
19. Dusk
20. Dawn
21. Quest
22. Thrilling
23. Pillar
24. Autumn
25. Teddy Bear
26. Snuff
27. Prism
28. Rescue
29. Broken
30. Wall(s)
31. Beautiful
32. Tonight
33. Empty
34. Festive
35. Melody
36. Purple
37. Panic Switch
38. Sanctuary
39. Spell
40. Rejection
41. Sword
42. Love
43. Yellow
44. Boogeyman
45. Downstream
46. Fire Ball
47. Challenge
48. Sneeze
49. Illogical
50. Intermission
51. Overrated
52. Contagious
53. Magnificent
54. Summer
55. Button
56. Fragments
57. Merriment
58. Rising
59. Blue
60. Hesitation
61. Courage
62. Unknown
63. Potion
64. Faerie
65. Pumpkin
66. Battle
67. Bow
68. Malice
69. Castle
70. Scythe
71. Lost
72. Ribbon
73. Bars
74. Death
75. Memory
76. Winter
77. MAGICAL WORD OF YOUR CHOICE!
78. Childhood
79. Sacrifice
80. White
81. Graveyard
82. Umbrella
83. Infected
84. Breathe
85. Forever
86. Apologize
87. Heartache
88. Invincible
89. Illusion
90. Prayer
91. Spring
92. Paranoid
93. Jar Of Dirt
94. Magic
95. Needles
96. Golden
97. Dying
98. Red
99. Ablaze
100. The End

So, I've just dropped out of my job

I am not built for Office work, give me crappy shop lifting customers any day. THOSE I can handle.
I should not be so happy to be out of a job, I've had 2 jobs in my life that have made me completely miserable, both of which my 'manager' seems to think I'm being delusional, that I live in my own fantasy dream world.
What because I want to draw, I want to do something creative with my life?
Thing is I've dreamt and hope and practise and loved this life since I was a small child, I WILL get a role where I get to be creative, where my talents aren't going to waste. Just because I'm not interested in being blonde and super skinny and fashionable, and care more about elves and fairies and dragons in online games, doesn't make me worse than you. I care about my friends, and the people I love, I love to draw and imagine and pretend.
Life is a miserable place, why make it more miserable by doing things you hate.

Never take life too seriously, you'll never make it out alive.

Words to live by and adore.


Apologies for rant... *wanders off*

So... You can't do what you want and pay the bills at the same.
But you can't work cause the only thing your good at is the one thing you won't get paid for.

What the fuck do you do.
I want to draw, and write and paint. But I can't because there's no money there for me.
And I can't find a job I like because my only experience is retail...
I can study and live in tiny house, or live in nice house and hate my job...
Wtf do I do...

Ok I've never been huge on Writing journals...
but I guess now as good a time as any to try.
So if this seems long and rambling and annoying Im sorry.

Though of course I bet no ones actually reading this.
If you do. I would really grateful if you leave something.
I'm currently feeling very underwhelmed. I've been drawing since I was a really little girl. Its always been a passion. But I always seemed to get missed in the crowd.
I mean don't get me wrong. DA is huge! and I'm only a little doodler. but still.
Hard to find the momento to draw when It feels pointless and useless.

And I feel that a lot recently. I don't even know where to start. And Like i said this is probably useless and futile. I mean if no one wants to look at my pics why would anyone read this.
So this isn't going to be as long as I thought. but oh well.
Please I beg you if you have read this... please tell me. let me know someone out there notices me.

ok
I am going to update my site...and as such to make me do so i am jumping on my mates band wagon with the 100 items challenge
*fingers Crossed*


1. Introduction   fav.me/d3k9ket
2. Complicated
3. Just Breathe fav.me/d5behri
4. Rivalry
5. Unbreakable
6. Hold My Hand  fav.me/d3kghi8
7. Eternity
8. Gateway
9. Death fav.me/d5pm5as
10. Opportunities
11. Forgive Me
12. Dead Wrong
13. Running Away
14. Falling Apart
15. Seeking Solace
16. Betrayal
17. Throb
18. Love  kittyana.deviantart.com/art/Lo…
19. Let Go  fav.me/d4ts6uf
20. My Inspiration  kittyana.deviantart.com/art/In…
21. Never Again
22. Technology  fav.me/d4ts7c2
23. Failure
24. Rebirth
25. Breaking Down
26. Forever
27. Lost and Found
28. Light fav.me/duvp1t
29. Dark fav.me/d3kghi8
30. Reversible
31. Colors
32. Exploration
33. Seeing Red
34. Shades of Grey
35. Forgotten
36. Dreamer fav.me/d5pm4q8
37. Fall In Love fav.me/d4cb8ye
38. Burning
39. Out of Time
40. Knowing How
41. Fork in the road
42. Start
43. Nature's Fury fav.me/d5pm51a
44. At Peace
45. Heart Song
46. Reflection
47. Perfection
48. Everyday Magic fav.me/d5pm453
49. Tears
50. Party
51. Troubling Thoughts
52. Stirring of the Wind
53. Future
54. Health and Healing
55. Separation
56. Everything For You
57. Slow Down
58. Heartfelt Apology
59. Challenged
60. Exhaustion
61. Accuracy fav.me/d5bejq4
62. Irregular Orbit
63. Cold Embrace
64. Frost
65. A Moment in Time fav.me/d4ts6aw
66. Dangerous Territory
67. Boundaries
68. Unsettling Revelations
69. Shattered
70. Bitter Silence
71. The True You fav.me/d5bek05
72. Pretense
73. Patience
74. Midnight fav.me/dtgrvd
75. Shadows
76. Summer Haze
77. Memories
78. Change in the Weather
79. Illogical
80. Only Human
81. A Place to Belong
82. Advantage
83. Scars
84. Echoes
85. Falling
86. Picking up the Pieces
87. Gunshot
88. Possession
89. Twilight
90. Nowhere and Nothing
91. Answers
92. Innocence fav.me/d54b435
93. Simplicity
94. Reality
95. Acceptance
96. Lesson
97. Enthusiasm
98. Game
99. Friendship fav.me/dugd0a
100. Endings